New mindless eating alternative: mindless adding of things to my Amazon wishlist.  I can always find things I want. The only thing I might like more than eating is shopping?
Also: episodes of You Are What You Eat on my DVR every weekday. I am in love with Gillian McKeith and her ideas and crazy-talk. I […]

Posted in Just Life 2 Comments »

Tonight I will be sleeping in pink Hello Kitty pajamas–a woman’s size large.
…while weighing 213.

Posted in Just Life No Comments »

I look smaller when I look at myself in the mirror today.
Like, “wow” smaller.
Particularly my thighs… which is just… wacky.
Maybe this happens every once in a while when you spend most of your life trying not to look at yourself…

Posted in Just Life 1 Comment »

I’ve weighed between 211 and 212 consistently since the end of last week.
But I haven’t been eating perfectly. I had my first Thanksgiving dinner on Sunday, will have my second on Thursday like everyone else, and my third on Saturday. We eat in my family.
I’m not going to stress myself out over it, seeing now […]

Posted in Just Life, Personal Progress 1 Comment »

Trying a new experiment, splitting up my exercise off days.
I’ve accumulated 155 minutes of exercise in the last three days, and weighed more this morning than I did Monday.
Why, God?
So I’m taking a break today. Thursday tends to be a stressful, busier day for me anyway.

Posted in Just Life, Exercise 1 Comment »

Why do I diet? I sometimes diet because I am suddenly vain (it only took me 24 years to get there), but mostly I diet because I want to be healthy, I want to feel better about myself.
But the easiest way to feel worse about myself is to let my diet run my life. In […]

Posted in Just Life 1 Comment »

I was 211 this morning!
Maybe less. I ate a little before I weighed myself. (Okay, I’m probably stretching with that, but I was REALLY glad to even see that number at all.)
And maybe something miraculous will happen between now and Friday, putting me only a week behind in the progress I know I am capable […]

Posted in Just Life 1 Comment »

I have a doctor’s appointment in the morning. I am anxious to see if I lost enough weight since my last visit for him to even notice on my file (I’m never there to actually talk about my weight.) I am a dork.
I’ve weighed in the neighborhood of 213 every morning since Wednesday, and as […]

Posted in Just Life No Comments »

In my scale-climbing sadness, I ate a baby bag of peanut M&Ms today. I should have counted, but I think about 10 were inside. They were 80 calories. And delicious.
I also had a baby Snickers… which I remember Snickers being way better than this was. Have I evolved or was it too small to taste?
I […]

Posted in Just Life 2 Comments »

Something is wrong. I’m sad.
I’ve been weighing a little more every day since Tuesday morning. Up, up, up slightly every day. It usually works the other way, I see a tiny change daily, and then, bam, my lowest weight appears on Friday–not coincidentally the day I make official.
I’ve exercised more than I ever normally do […]

Posted in Just Life No Comments »