I’m not dead. Just my spirit is.
Project Fit Not Skinny is in intermission while I get my life and my issues together.
My weight is steady in the neighborhood of 218, seven pounds over my lowest. But my anxiety, compulsive (crazy) thoughts, and insecurities have all taken a major fall in the last two months.
Maybe I […]

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Just because it’s nice to have something positive to say…
I tried on pants from the Junior’s department last week that fit, and I didn’t even buy them because I didn’t have to buy them. Gone are the days where only one, maybe two things went onto my body.
I have a new job where I burn […]

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Did you find my blog while searching for personal accounts of agoraphobia or panic disorder?
I’d like your help in advancing a sister site to Fit Not Skinny.
If you suffer from (or used to suffer from) panic disorder, panic attacks, agoraphobia, generalized anxiety or social phobia, and are willing to share your story, your progress, and/or […]

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But only by weighing myself when I said I wouldn’t. I liked what I saw, but I don’t want to be so obsessed by it (which is why I said I wouldn’t at all.)
I admit I’ve been counting calories, not portions of food like I should be. Instead of making sure I eat a certain […]

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One of my favorite things about the new year? All of the self-help, life-changing, weight-loss shows on TLC and Discovery Health.
I am making a take on Gillian McKeith’s lentil stew on the stove right now. I’ve decided I will prove to myself that I can live the next 40 days on plan, even without weighing […]

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Day two on plan.
Well, I had a granola bar in the car but it was that or like totally pass out.
And my jogger/rebounder/trampoline arrived today! It’s pretty hilarious.
I weighed 213.6 in my jeans this morning (I forgot to weigh myself before I got dressed, and I was almost out the door.) I should take the […]

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Full day on plan today.
I know. WHAT?
I think this is my first day on plan since, I don’t know, Halloween? November sometime?
I’m so bored with cheating–even part-time. I was feeling super sluggish and tired. Besides that there are no chocolate chip cookies in the house anymore, so what’s the point?

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I have no appointments between now and the new year, so I changed to my 2008 calendar today. I thumbed back through the months, where I wrote my weight for each week in Saturday’s box. In the first week of January this year, I had lost just over 63 pounds.
That means, for this year, if […]

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I haven’t journaled food or made effort to count calories in weeks. I weigh 212.
I’ve been eating anything I want, really, even spaghetti and gingerbread cookies, so long as I eat something because I want it and when I am truly hungry. Geneen Roth has taught me to eat when I am hungry and to […]

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New mindless eating alternative: mindless adding of things to my Amazon wishlist.  I can always find things I want. The only thing I might like more than eating is shopping?
Also: episodes of You Are What You Eat on my DVR every weekday. I am in love with Gillian McKeith and her ideas and crazy-talk. I […]

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