Everything in moderation except living
December 22, 2007
I have no appointments between now and the new year, so I changed to my 2008 calendar today. I thumbed back through the months, where I wrote my weight for each week in Saturday’s box. In the first week of January this year, I had lost just over 63 pounds.
That means, for this year, if I count my lowest weight (which will not change by the time it’s officially 2008), I have lost around 47 pounds this year. Less than a pound a week on average. Eww to that.
I have 50 more pounds to lose, or ideally more (my goal weight is 159–only five pounds less than the highest safe weight for my height) and sometimes I have no idea how I am ever going to do it.
Just recently, almost overnight, my favorite jeans–so much my favorite that I own two pairs in the exact same size and shade–began to show my underwear when I bent over or sat because they are falling from being too big. I could be a 14 if I tried harder, if I wanted it more.
Last weekend, my neighbor on one side called me by my mother’s name when he waived hello from a distance, and today my neighbor on the other side had a conversation in front of me with my mother as if I wasn’t even there. In his southern accent, he said to her, commenting on my size, “Look what she done did,” really, really embarrassing me. When I walked away, he yelled for my attention and said, “If I wasn’t so old, I’d ask to put a ring on your finger.”
Weird.
Sometimes it feels like I’m still standing at the bottom of a mountain. It’s just smaller. But so am I.
Posted in Just Life
December 26th, 2007 at 12:16 am
I think it’s hilarious when people, often unknown to themselves, put their feet in their mouths trying to give a compliment. I’ve had that, “If I weren’t so damn old and ugly…” comment I don’t know how many times. I usually say something like, “Fortunately for us both, you are.”
P.S. I’d kill to weigh in the 150’s again. If we lived closer (man, how long have I been typing that?), we’d totally be work-out buddies.
December 26th, 2007 at 9:32 pm
LOL. You’re too much.
I’d sort of kill to be <200. I can’t even think about the 150s. Someday!
December 27th, 2007 at 6:10 am
how cute in an oboxious, embarassing sort of way. ha!
Yay for progress, even when it is slow.